My heart is full of gratitude
For gifts received & yet to come
I am returning to the world
Ready to create
Ready for my love
Ready for yours
From the depths I was called
From the brink I was saved
By friends
Both seen & unseen
Thank you
Whether I sink or swim
I will rise to the stars
Of this I am certain now
For they are within me
As they are in you
The past year I was so close
Almost slipping beneath the waves
Almost following the same path
When getting all but raped
Is the thing that saves you
You know you took a wrong turn
But also
That your Guidance is strong
And unwavering
This has all been necessary
Per aspera ad astera
Through hardships to the stars
How I have fought
Doubting my sanity
Losing my mind
Crying till I blacked out
And yet being certain
Ever more certain
Of the Truth
Of the poison I swallowed
And it will out
Out it will
I am coming for you
And I am bringing my army
It grows every day
I grow every day
Be certain of that
I am coming
She will destroy me
As I will destroy you
When I go down
You will go down with me
You cannot drown a mermaid
You cannot silence the Siren
I lift the skull from the waves
I lift my eyes to the stars
I have never been more certain
I have never been stronger
And I am growing still
Be certain of that
I can see the stars
The light has gone on
At long last
Now I see my path
So very clearly
The crooked path
The narrow road
I choose
I accept
So here I am
All but drowned in sorrows
Exhausted to the bone
Struggling to the shore
I may yet falter
I may yet fall
But I have seen the stars
In the Abyss
As they are in the Heavens
It matters not whether
I sink or swim
Per aspera ad astera
I will drown
In a sea of stars
Or have you forgotten
That I fucking died
Hell yes
I can do anything
Even love
